In the show lie to me,
They say the more popular you are, the more you have to lie.
The same face can have various expressions in front of different people.
Pretend to be liked.
Pretend to have many friends.
The fact is
we want to make most people happy by lying and pretending
or just make ourselves happy by always telling the truth to ourselves?
If we choose the latter, more or less we would feel lonely and kind of abandoned by people.
For me losing myself is much worse than being lonely.
So no matter how much I am not understood by anyone around me,
I will always follow the light that exists deep within me.
The world is too complicated, and the society is too sophisticated.
Somtimes I think I'm a girl who is allergic to the real world,
trying my best to love it,
and also planning secretly to leave it and escape to my own world, my own insistance.
Nothing can stop me from living the life I want,
stop me from getting to a higher place than this world,
no matter it's poor or rich, ostentatious or wonderful, vulgar or noble.
I will accept it for what it is.
Even if it's just conjecture, just some place that only exists in my mind that I hope to surport my soul.
Even if the truth behind it is nothingness.
Now I'm sitting here in front my desk, drinking some water.
Outside of the window, a girl is singing
"As summer has gone, collapsed like a chair,like the heart of a bird,a bell in the air."