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In the show lie to me,
They say the more popular you are, the more you have to lie.
The same face can have various expressions in front of different people.
Pretend to be liked.
Pretend to have many friends.





The fact is
we want to make most people happy by lying and pretending
or just make ourselves happy by always telling the truth to ourselves?
If we choose the latter, more or less we would feel lonely and kind of abandoned by people.
For me losing myself is much worse than being lonely.
So no matter how much I am not understood by anyone around me,
I will always follow the light that exists deep within me.





The world is too complicated, and the society is too sophisticated.
Somtimes I think I'm a girl who is allergic to the real world,
trying my best to love it,
and also planning secretly to leave it and escape to my own world, my own insistance.
Nothing can stop me from living the life I want,
stop me from getting to a higher place than this world,
no matter it's poor or rich, ostentatious or wonderful, vulgar or noble.
I will accept it for what it is.
Even if it's just conjecture, just some place that only exists in my mind that I hope to surport my soul.
Even if the truth behind it is nothingness.






Now I'm sitting here in front my desk, drinking some water.
Outside of the window, a girl is singing

"As summer has gone, collapsed like a chair,like the heart of a bird,a bell in the air."

11 comments:

  1. You have a sensitive heart & a hard head ^^ I appreciate it ^^

    So this world is so tough for you. Our world... where you can easily find out such hypocrisy around... but don't escape... just cope with them by your true heart... don't pretend to like them if you do not and treat kindly with the good persons (even though they are not many nowadays... but I am sure you can discover ^^).

    It looks like your cold water in your glass... after drink it up, it would be warm in your body ^^ Hope you would meet such persons who can make you feel warm...

    CAUTION: don't drink toxin... haha

    Don't turn your back to your world ^^

    Loneliness would never make you be happy ^-^

    Good luck and have a nice day.

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  2. "the world is too complicated, and the society is too sophisticated
    sometimes i think i m a girl who is allergic to the world
    trying my best to love it"

    such lovely lines..
    do u pray to god when u go into such a pensive state?

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  3. Thanks for the sweet comment on my blog, hun.

    Your blog is so pretty too, I like all the images you use.

    Feel free to stop by The Drifter and the Gypsy again to say hello and don't forget to follow my blog as well!

    xoxo,
    Micaela

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  4. Always let your inner light shine. Follow that light, my dear♥

    your words amaze me ever so, my dear. thank you so much for your lovely comment. it means ever so much to me♥

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  5. Hi K,

    nice post! I have been feeling like that lately..
    I guess I even feel rather antisocial for I just could not understand why my surrounding behaves so bizarre unlike other city in the world and I complained alot.

    I like the way you emphasize of not lying to yourself..

    I know how in the end we are rejected by the society due to this. But let us not be silly and shine with your own uniqueness:)

    I do learn to be more tolerant and still learning...

    Hopefully you won't feel lonely anymore:)

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  6. i feel this need to thank you for the wonderful encouraging words you say to me, thank you, thank you! i love this post, your pure honesty, i truly do hope you will follow your light no matter what your surroundings are, you really must. for you are all you truly have, what is yours, and you must be true to yourself in all possible circumstances, otherwise, there comes the tragedy. stay firm. much love i send you ♥

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  7. "Somtimes I think I'm a girl who is allergic to the real world,
    trying my best to love it,
    and also planning secretly to leave it and escape to my own world, my own insistance."
    That's exactly how I feel at times too.
    I agree, losing myself is much worse than being lonely.

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  8. oh my.
    this was such a deep and honest post. and i love posts like that.
    first of all, thank you so much for the words you leave on my blog. i appreciate them greatly.
    okay... so back to your lovely lovely words.
    wow. i totally agree with you. i strongly believe in this one: "For me losing myself is much worse than being lonely.
    So no matter how much I am not understood by anyone around me,
    I will always follow the light that exists deep within me."
    true true true. <3

    it feels good to know that we're all in this together.

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  9. i like the way your mind works

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  10. this is such an amazing post, I love it.

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