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Long Lonely Tuesday Afternoons

I used to hate Tuesday afternoons so much when I was in elementary school.
Because every Tuesday afternoon ,all the TV channels had no signal.
The screen appeared to be many quiet colorful strips.
I didn't know that was because all the TV stations needed to be fixed on Tuesday afternoons.
The only thing I knew was how much I hated Tuesday afternoons.
Every Tuesday afternoon, I would stay in my small dark bedroom, waiting for 6:00 to come.
When it started to get dark, at 6:00,the vivid pictures would show again.
I didn't really care what the pictures were,
I just knew at that moment ,I kicked the loneliness out from my heart and blood.
I became excited again.
Back then it was so easy for me to get the loneliness away.
I easily became happy for the small things.
I was not afraid of anything but the long lonely Tuesday afternoons.




The loneliness we had when we were young can never compare with the loneliness we have now.

When we were young ,the loneliness was the Tuesday afternoons,
but at night ,the signal would come back. Everything would be normal.
When we were young, the loneliness was some beautiful toys we couldn't get,
but when New Year or other festivals came, our parents would always buy them for us.
When we were young, the loneliness was when a few classmates transfered to another school,
but soon some other new classmates would join us, and then we would make new friends.
When we were young, it was so easy for us to get satisfied------
It was like walking in a long hall with many clap on lights,
we would get into the dark at times,
but as long as we kept walking by claping our hands,
we would see the light again.

The loneliness we have now is that all the clap on lights were changed into normal lights,we will never get into the dark anymore.
But when we look around, no one is here.


12 comments:

  1. this was beautiful, really :) it made me think on some things that were hanging in one dark little corner of my mind. you look so fragile and lovely in that first picture. <3

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  2. "The loneliness we have now is that all the clap on lights were changed into normal lights,we will never get into the dark anymore.
    But when we look around, no one is here."


    That's... beautiful. Not the happiest image but I've always found that the sadder things have an exquisite beauty about them-- like this post. It's melancholy, truthful, and poignantly hopeful.

    P.S. Thank you for the comment.

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  3. Thank you for the comment...
    Ah loneliness, dear, is somehow contradictive. We avoid it, we muse inside it.
    I like the way you end it up like...a big question mark over there, hanging in air..

    "When we look around, no one is here."

    Ah..

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  4. Wow which country did you grow up in? Sometimes loneliness isn't fun, but I have been enjoying it lately.

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  5. u gotta b strong, that's what u learn frm yo loneliness (i guess)

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  6. I really like this and I agree. Loneliness now, when it strikes, is so much deeper than it was when we were young.
    I usually try and read books to stamp it away, like I did when I was younger.

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  7. Your words have so much truth in it.
    And it was so beautiful.
    Loneliness, it hurts, but I think there is something about it that is lovely because we learn and realize things in our heart through that.
    We grow...
    and we know we're alive.
    <3

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  8. Beautiful post ^^

    If we know how sad loneliness is, we would feel really well how happy when we have someone together to "kick off" such loneliness ^^

    so let's appreciate what happiness now we're having ^^

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  9. Thanks for following.

    It's very true, and because of that short sense of loneliness, we are now ill-equipped to understand and accept the loneliness of now.

    Until, of course we do accept it. And then where do we find ourselves?

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  10. Only if loneliness could be cured by something being bought or something small, but in reality it doesn't work that way, for me that is.
    I remember being a little kid and no one wanting to sit by me at lunch...I did not know why, but I was the quiet kid and no one wanted to be around the quiet kid.
    beautiful post and lovely outfit!
    interesting that your channels would be out on Tuesdays.

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  11. this is a beautiful post, love.

    ''The loneliness we had when we were young can never compare with the loneliness we have now.''
    very true xx

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